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[lollipopsandwhisky]

[ It's hard to imagine that after thirty years of life, anything would or even could change. The world will keep spinning, day will turn to night, you will sleep next to a woman you married, you will blink, breathe and carry on like the world will never change. Because you know it won't.

Then it kicks you in the arse and throws a spanner in the works

Gabe had lived the same day over, and over for a good thirty years. He woke up to his wife shouting something about work, or a shirt not being ironed or some other benign bullshit. He watched her go, did his chores and headed out. Every day the same.

He went to work for a few hours, driving trains from point A to B like he always did. He said hi to his few friends, giving them a big wave as he left to go to a job he actually loved. He walked through the doors at three pm every day, helping the local shelter care for a feed some stray dogs. They were the closest thing he had to children after all.

Before he could realise it, it was half seven and he was wandering home- every day the fucking same.

But not that day. Either age was getting to him, the moon, or well a lack of variety, Gabe took it upon himself to take some time for himself. Which lead him to some stupid chain coffee shop he'd usually avoid at all costs. He wandered in, letting the smells take him over as he leant on the counter, waiting for someone to- Well, not notice him, he was the size of a house, but get the time to serve him.

Once his order was done, he was sort of excited, tapping his fingers on the side as he waited. Sure it was find of a funny sight seeing a huge man being excited about hot chocolate, but any change from the day to day rigmarole was exciting!]

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[ Gabe wasn't sure how to react to Darryn approaching him- That was the last thing he wanted, that insane need and raw emotion pulling him to Darryn. He didn't need to feel that undiluted lust bubbling at the pit of his stomach when he saw darryn's face.

He needed to walk back into the house and hide from everything.

But he couldn't...

He wanted to talk when Darryn got close enough, but instead he ended up reaching out with his other hand, clinging to the clothing draped around Darryn's body to pull the man against him. He used the grip to pull himself and Darryn closer, trying to press his body against the other mans- even with a gate in the way.

The kiss pushed him over the edge though, his hand clinging to Darryn's as he very audibly moaned against Darryn's lips. He wasted no time kissing him back, like he hadn't been gone for months, like he hadn't even left the alley way.

The little bubble world he got lost in with Darryn was back and now he knew how much he needed that man, he was damned sure he wasn't going to let him go ]

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[With a sigh, Darryn melted into the kiss, fell entirely into that moment. Just the feel of Gabe against him, the way everything about him was taking over and rolling over him, sensations and scents.

[Darryn worked his free hand against the collar of Gabe's shirt, seeking any skin he could get towards, moaning at the feel of his warmth. Desperate for more. He ran his tongue across Gabe's lower lip before pressing in for a deeper kiss, not sure if he wanted to devour or be devoured more.

[All he wanted was more. Everything was in the way of more, clothes, the outside world, the gate - but it was hard to take a moment to remove those elements when all he wanted to do was drown in Gabe's mouth.]

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[ That moment took over everything then, there was nothing in the world anymore but him and the Sun- The one thing that usually made him cry for the moon became all he wanted. He wanted to bathe in his light all day.

He groaned as he finally freed his hand from Darryn's, using his two arms to wrap around Darryn's waist. He barely smiled against the man's mouth as he made a little 'oop' noise, picking Darryn up and moving him over the gate.

He half chuckled as he put the man back down- He knew it had to look funny, him picking him up and over a gate but he needed that space between them to be gone. Now it was he could kiss Darryn like he wanted, pressing his body against the blonde's as he ran his tongue over Darryn's bottom lip. He needed more- ] I missed yer Sol...

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[Darryn was able to shift his weight as he was lifted - not that he really thought Gabe needed the help lifting him over the gate - wrapping both his arms around Gabe's neck, keeping close as he could until he got back on the ground and could be closer again still.

[He stroked his nose against Gabe's, letting his lips gently slide against the other man's mouth in the same motion.] I having English bad. [He reminded him, switching to Gaelic, breathing against his lips.] //I need you.//

[And that need was very apparent in his tone. That was all he was focusing on, even if the ring on his finger was weighing heavily on his hand, the need for his hands to press against Gabe was stronger.]

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[ For a moment Gabe had forgotten all about the world, his hands tracing up Darryn's back- Until one of his neighbours took it upon themselves to cough at the men, muttering something under their breath.

Gabe jumped at the noise, giving the annoying family a little bow before he grabbed Darryn's arm, pulling him along and into the house- He thought it might be safer in there.

Given it was the house he had with his wife, it was decorated as you would expect from Gabe. Bare woods, soft floors, warm reds and lights everywhere. In a word, Rustic.

He wrapped his arms around Darryn as soon as he had to door closed, returning to his position against Darryn.] //Don't say you need me, god i won't be able to hold back if you do//

[ He barely hummed, just barely touching his lips to Darryn's as he spoke again ]//I need you, I don't think you could understand how much i've been longing for you//

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[He gave the room a cursory glance, but his eyes quickly returned to Gabe, not willing to look away after so many months just having forbidden, fleeting moments thinking of his face. It had just barely changed - in that way faces with mortal lifetimes did - but Darryn still saw those differences.

[Fuck, had he had it that bad? DID he still have it that bad?

[He closed his eyes, gripping at Gabe's head, scraping his fingers over his scalp to pull him that much closer. Just holding back from pushing into a kiss so he could answer.] //I know how much. I mean, I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't do this. I have so much to lose with this.//

[He couldn't fight it any longer, pressing shallow but longing kisses against Gabe's lips, pushing his leg back up against Gabe's outer thigh and then hooking it over his hip. Just like back on the street months ago. Just as good now as then.] //But Gods, I do need you, Gabe.//

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[ Gabe had no idea he even looked different from the day he last saw Darryn, but he knew Darryn looked the time- That face had been burnt into his eyelids so it was all he could see when he closed his eyes, despite trying to forget that day.

He sighed as he all but fell into Darryn's arms, his hands clinging to the other mans back. He was almost scared to let go of him, like if he did he'd disappear into the world again where he couldn't find him ever again. ] //I know what you mean, there's so much we could both lose. We both know better...//

[ He moved his hand from Darryn's back to stroke across his jawline, reveling in the softness of his skin under his fingertips. He had no idea how he could feel so wrapped up in that man when he barely knew him- He knew better.

He finally relinquished his other hand on Darryn's back, clinging to the underside of Darryn's thigh, his fingers sprawling up towards his ass cheek ] //Darryn i can barely breathe without you- i don't know why but i need to warn you, this time i'm not letting you go...//

[ It was both a threat, and a promise.]

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[Every touch Gabe pushed and stroked against him and his skin, made soft, longing and blissful sounds escape from Darryn beneath his breath. As if his very heart was sighing. He was too in that moment, it was dizzying and sickening to try and think of anything other before or after it.

[He slipped his hands under the collar of Gabe's shirt, scraping his nails of one hand to bite into the skin and pull his head closer, forehead to forehead so he could press soft kisses across Gabe's jaw. His other hand pushed against the warmth of Gabe's skin, teasing his whole body which wanted to feel Gabe fully against him, not the clothes that kept them separated.]

//I shouldn't have come back. I'm sorry.// [He had to apologise before he used his leg to pull Gabe's hips closer to him in the same moment he pressed his open mouth and tongue against his mouth for a deep, slow drowning kiss.]

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[ He had no idea how much one person could need another till he met Darryn, how suddenly things that never made sence before, did. He felt nearly knocked out from the shear force of emotiones he never expected to feel- It made his head spin...

He whined as he placed a few light kisses over Darryn's lips, trying desperarely to get all the love he could out of him before his sunshine dissappeared again- He needed to remember every inch of the man incase this was the last time he would see him. ]

//You're sorry? I'm going to make you fucking sorry for not coming back sooner...//[ He flicked his eyes up at Darryn's, watching his face before he pushed into the kiss he was given. He all but tangled his tongue with Darryn's as he moaned into their kiss, the fact they where alone finally sinking in- He rolled his hips up against Darryn's, trying to get the most out of thim then.

He'd never needed anyone so much before. But he felt like if he let go for even a moment, his heart would stop... ]

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[Darryn purred into the kiss, snaking his tongue against Gabe's, scraping it against his teeth, swallowing his breath. It was the kind of desperate kiss more becoming of a teenager than a man of his age. But Gods, that's how he felt. Like his whole body and being was screaming 'this is IT' as if he hadn't had so much before.]

//'Make me sorry'? That's mean.// [He didn't want to pull his hands back, but he reluctantly did, scraping his nails across the back of Gabe's neck before he pulled free the buttons of his coat, shaking it off his shoulders. One layer down at least.

[He cupped Gabe's face, kissing him with more shallow, breathless kisses as he stroked his fingers over his jawline and cheekbones. Ignoring the sense of guilt that had reared up the last time he had done that on the street months ago. There was no then, only now. Darryn backed up to a couch, dropping down onto it, secure in the knowledge Gabe would follow.] //I'll let you be mean to me; don't worry.//

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[ Whine, that was all Gabe could do when Darryn left him- Jesus he felt like a lost puppy when Darryn moved from him.

He waited no time in following the blonde, crawling up over him to place his hands either side of his face as he started slowly dotting kisses over Darryn's face, following over his scar, across his forehead and then around the perimeter of his face, trying to map out every detail with his lips. The only time he stopped with the kisses was to speak ]

//I don't think i could actually be mean to you// [Kiss] //In fact... all i want to do is make you happy// [ Kiss ] //I don't know why, but i feel like i need to give you the world// [ Kiss ] // Like nothing would make sence without you// [ Kiss ] // I know we have so much to lose, we both do...// [ Kiss ] //But i'd be willing to give it up for you... even just for a fleeting moment in your arms Darryn// [ Kiss ] //I can't get you out my mind// [ Kiss ] //I don't want to // [ Kiss ] // I want to keep you in my mind and in every thought i have//

[ He sighed, looking down at Darryn, moving one of his hands to brush his hair out his face, letting his fingers linger on the mans skin a little too long before he pulled away ] // Please tell me i'm not being crazy, please tell me somewhere in all that bullshit i make sence//

[ He couldn't do that if Darryn didn't feel like he did, there had to be something there pulling them together afterall, even with everything they both had to lose ]

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[Darryn tried to focus as much on Gabe's words as his lips moving across his skin. Guilt wormed so deeply into him when Gabe talked about being willing to give things up for him. He didn't want Gabe to have to give up anything. Nor did he want to damage his family, his husband and his children.

[Yet here he was. He had known all that was on the line and here he was regardless. Apparently something in him was willing to give it up too.

[He took a deep breath, brushing his fingers through Gabe's hair, stroking them down across his jawline.] //We're both being crazy; but Gabe I can't not. When I'm near you its like fire, it totally takes me over and consumes me.//

//I've tried not to think of you. I've tried not to come back. I've tried to ignore this hole in me that feels filled when I'm near you.// [He slowly ran his fingers down Gabe's neck, holding them near enough that he could feel the man's pulse.] //Its not worked. And it doesn't make sense, I didn't even fall for my husband this fast or deep...//

[He smiled, a little weak and tight with emotion.] //Part of me thinks if we just... give in, maybe it'll go away as fast as it came on. That its not a sustainable flame.//

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[ Gabe wanted so much to tell Darryn they weren't crazy for doing that...

But they really were ] //I know we're crazy, but i know we can't stop this... I can't hold this in much longer.//

[ He flicked his eyes towards Darryn's hand, watching it before he pressed into his fingers, trying to get all the contact he could ] //I tried not to think of you too, but it's like your face is burnt into my mind, i can't even close my eyes without seeing you- I don't know why this is happening, i wish i did... But all i know is i need you like i need air in my lungs//

[ He almost agreed with Darryn's thoughts of giving in to make it all go away, but he had one small fear] //What if that makes it worse? Like after that one moment we can't let this go? What then?//

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[Darryn sighed, closing his eyes. If he couldn't see Gabe though, he wanted to still feel him, holding his face, feeling the warmth of his skin.]

//I don't know.// [He admitted.] //I don't want to think of it. Even if I do think of it, I'm still here. I still can't make myself go.//

[Darryn pushed up, pressing his lips against Gabe's, whimpering quietly beneath his breath at the feeling that rolled through him at that touch.] //I need you. I'm selfish.//

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//Okay, let's not think about it then...// [ If their only real options were think about bad things, or be wrapped up in each other, he was choosing the latter. ]

//Isn't it a good thing I'm selfish too?// [ He half laughed as he pushed down to kiss Darryn, one of those needing passionate kisses he knew he was meant to give to someone other than the married man on the couch of the home he shared with his wife.

But everything in his body was still pulling him to Darryn. And so that's where he wanted to be. He barely groaned as he drew his tongue across Darryn's lip, so thankful for the privacy they had- more so when he accidentally pressed his own hips against Darryn's, closing what little space was between them ]

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[Darryn took less solace in the fact they were both as bad as each other than he took in the kiss. Happily pushing up against Gabe's body as he thrust his tongue into that warm, wet cavern. Stroking his tongue against Gabe's, moaning a sighing sound into his mouth.

[The need right then more than outweighed the guilt. The need to feel the other man, to be totally absorbed by him. Darryn shifted his legs, curling them around Gabe's in a tight grip to hold him close. So those hips didn't accidentally move away again.

[He needed more, sliding his hands under Gabe's shirt, drawing his fingers up the man's spine. Feeling something deep inside him sparking and trembling at the sheer feeling of Gabe's skin.]

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[ Gabe moaned into Darryn's mouth, his tongue pressing against Darryn's, trying to desperately remember the taste of his light.

Oh his hips weren't going anywhere, only barely shifting in Darryn's grip to press down against the man below him, as if that would get them closer.

Once the 'okay go' was given on hands all over skin, he wasted no time snaking one of his own hands up Darryn's shirt, feeling over his stomach and pressing lightly into his skin. God why did he need more of that, why did he need that forever, just to touch Darryn, feel his skin, be so close to him ]

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[Darryn drug his fingernails down Gabe's back, light at first, but then after drawing his hands back up he went harder. Then harder again. More desperate each time to keep hold of Gabe, to cling to him. Afraid they might be torn apart before anything in his needs were sated.

[Every split second they broke apart to breathe from that deep kiss was too long. Making him have to gasp a deep breath as deep as he could before sealing his lips back against Gabe's mouth. Part of him really hoped that this would be enough. Just being close to Gabe, just kissing him. That after enough time that would satisfy them both without having to go further.

[He knew that wasn't going to happen when he managed to tear on hand away from Gabe to undo his own shirt. Giving him more access to more skin.]

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[ Gabe was too tied up in Darryn to have any other hopes than that moment lasting forever, for them to be on that couch for the rest of time, stealing each other's breaths and hearts.

Going no further was not an option in Gabe's mind, if they were doing that, they were going all the way to try and dim the flame they had. He barely growled against Darryn's lips, nipping the man's bottom lip rather cheekily as he dragged his nails down Darryn's chest- only to notice something.

He forced himself to pull back, his fingers hovering over a dim glow on Darryn's chest. He blinked a few times, his fingertips dancing over the light before he cracked a small smile ] //Now i see why i want to call you sunshine... You really are!//

[ After turning into a furry beast once a month, a little glowing seemed like nothing to him ]

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[Oh Gods, that had slipped Darryn's mind. The crossing of worlds, the different species thing. He bit his lower lip a little sheepishly before Gabe spoke, smiling once he did. Still sheepish, but not so worried as he might have been.]

//You have no idea.// [But he thought he probably should have some. Darryn cupped Gabe's head in his hands, pulling him back close for another slow kiss, longing and passionate in the slowness.

[In that kiss he relaxed his holding back of his powers, letting that natural glow overtake him, the scar in the centre of his chest the strongest point. If Gabe was going to get all of him and see all of him, it was going to have to be an honest him.]

//If this is too weird, I can go.// [He said it, but he really didn't want to go. He felt like he'd die if he did.]

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[ The whole glowing thing, oddly, didn't put Gabe off, if anything it just made him a far more interested in Darryn.

Once he was freed from the kiss, he leant up again, trailing his hands over Darryn's chest, up towards his neck, dancing them lightly over his throat before stroking the back of them up Darryn's jawline ] //No... No i really like it. I guess this just makes you even more special//

[ He was freaking out internally mind, the man was fucking glowing- But he had no right to judge, he turned into a fucking wolf every 28 days and rolled around in dead things...

He smiled as he leant back down, restarting the passionate kiss they were lost in before words found their way to their mouths. He didn't want that moment to end, only get better... To which his first reaction was to pull his own shirt off, barely breaking the kiss to toss it across the room.

If Darryn was willing to bare it all to him, so was he, scars and all ]

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//That's just the start of the special things I do.// [Gods, what was he doing? This was such a bad idea. Darryn should just tell Gabe everything about himself to let him decide this was a bad idea and save them from doing it.

[But then the kiss was reignited and all those worries and thoughts just disappeared, overlaid by that bold, embossed need in him. There was just wanting to be utterly entwined in Gabe, lust definitely but also this hard need to have his heart beating hard against him, to have its speed controlled by how near or far he was from him and his warmth.

[Given more of Gabe's skin, Darryn drug his across Gabe's chest, twisting his fingers around the dark coils of chest hair, giving short tugs to it as he bit down on Gabe's lower lip with a soft hiss. Then soft again, all lips and tongue in the kiss and hot fingertips against Gabe's skin going everywhere. Collar-bone, pectorals and nipples, ribs, stomach. There wasn't going to be an inch of Gabe he couldn't claim to have touched.]

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[ There should have been questions, so many of them... Sadly all words but 'more' were lost to him then. He wanted so much more, more skin, more warmth, more need, just more Darryn.

He moaned against Darryn's lips, the feeling of that spark across his more sensitive skin just shot shudders down his spine, causing him to instinctively twitch his hips forward.

Though thanks to him being so needy, Darryn being so hot and everything else, all the feelings of want had built up and shifted to lust- A low, long groan came from Gabe as he pressed his stiffening cock against Darryn's own dick, almost in a show of need and a tease. ]

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[He was already a married man under another married man - there was little point in being shy. Darryn worked his fingers between them. He ached not actively holding Gabe against him, having to rely on gravity and its whims - but he was happy to unbuckle their belts, undo their flies. Feel the warmth of their growing erections from under that fabric, tantilising. So good that he just wanted to be naked against Gabe right then and there.

[It would have been too easy to just slide his hand into Gabe's trousers. Rub his bare skin against his cock. There was no point in being shy, but there was still some point in teasing a little more. In building it up for them both. In making this fire utterly consuming so that it wold burn out.

[Instead Darryn took hold of Gabe's face again, sliding his tongue deep into the other man's mouth, filling all his senses with him. As his tongue pushed against Gabe's, Darryn arched his stomach up. Their clothes removed enough that he felt the tug of his pubic hair against the other man's. Whimpering softly, wanting to be so much more tangled than that.]

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[ There were so many things he should have been thinking about, like how bad that was, how he should push back for the sake of maybe saving his marriage, how Darryn had kids... there were hundreds of reasons to push away, say sorry and walk from the situations.

There was only one reason to stay there; He needed Darryn.

And that was what was going to keep his body pushed down against the man beneath him, pinning the blonde there with his own body as he greedily ran his tongue across Darryn's, glad to invade some sort of warmth from the man. He left one of his hands braced against the couch, his other was more than happy to start groping down Darryn's chest, his fingers splaying out over his scar first before trailing over to one of his nipples, his thumb dragging over it before darting down, pressing his fingerprints into the skin on the blonde's stomach, as if that could keep him there forever.

If Darryn wanted him to feel on fire, he really did. Every inch of him felt like burning, too sharp, too sensitive... too needing.]