[Darryn gritted his teeth rather than collapse into tears. He tried to focus on the begging in Gabe's tone rather than the words, tried to hear it as Gabe needing him to stop, hoping he could obey that.
[But he knew if he looked up at him he'd just kiss him again. He knew he couldn't believe that honestly, because he knew Gabe wanted him as much as he wanted Gabe.
[He opened his eyes and looked down Gabe's body to the floor at their feet. Then he focused on his hands clasped around Gabe's lapels. On the suns marked there under his skin. Five on each hand.
[His children were the only reason he let go, pushing himself up straight and pressing his hands back against the wall behind him. He turned his head up, looking at the wall of the building opposite rather than Gabe, just in case any looks weakened his resolve.
[He opened his mouth but couldn't say anything, closing it again with a shaky sigh.]
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[But he knew if he looked up at him he'd just kiss him again. He knew he couldn't believe that honestly, because he knew Gabe wanted him as much as he wanted Gabe.
[He opened his eyes and looked down Gabe's body to the floor at their feet. Then he focused on his hands clasped around Gabe's lapels. On the suns marked there under his skin. Five on each hand.
[His children were the only reason he let go, pushing himself up straight and pressing his hands back against the wall behind him. He turned his head up, looking at the wall of the building opposite rather than Gabe, just in case any looks weakened his resolve.
[He opened his mouth but couldn't say anything, closing it again with a shaky sigh.]